Self-improvement

Today I jogged three and a half miles straight without stopping! I
have never been able to do this in my entire life. Although, I guess
it's not that huge of an achievement, since it was on a treadmill
(thus easier on the knees) and at a pretty slow pace. But I was very
happy because last week I was having trouble even jogging one and a
half miles at that pace. Last week I decided I had better step up on
my running so I forced myself to run at a much faster speed than
usual. And I thought I was doing terribly, because I was exhausted
after only a mile or so. This time I reverted back to my old speed to
see how long I could continue. I wasn't even tired when I stopped! So
I am happy about that, but still not celebrating because I have a long
way to go in these next couple weeks. And I spent so much time
slacking off!

After tonight, it made me feel really bad about not starting this
exercise much earlier. I moved up here in October of 2006 and gained
30-40 pounds in the four months following that. Yes, FOUR MONTHS. So
you can imagine the terrible stretch marks (still present today!). And
I didn't bother to start exercising until last October. If only I'd
gotten off my lazy bum earlier, I'd be in much better shape now. OR...
maybe if I didn't eat so much I wouldn't have gained all those
pounds--at least not so quickly. But man, I love food. So now I have
more muscle, but still a nice layer of fat on top, haha. I know I
should not eat so much but food is so delicious. I feel bad when I
eat with Myra and Leah because I always feel hungry and eat and eat
forever while they only eat a little bit. Also, I am not really
willing to give up food just to have a rockin' body, which, in my
opinion, is far too late for me to ever obtain.

So basically I guess I'm trying to say that I am very bad at this
self-improvement thing.